Isn't aging grand? Isn't aging terrifying? Isn't gaining awareness both terrifying and grand?
As I age, the little things still bugged me but not nearly as much as the big things I was finally seeing around me (they and I had lain hidden for the entirety of my life, with only a quick glimpse lurking in the shadows).
I started Ketamine infusion therapy at 70. I am now going on 74 - SO much lighter but so much more aware of the things I hid for 70 years because to reveal them too soon to me would have destroyed me. My PTSD was well earned but is no longer a badge or a costume but a lesson and an inspiration for he woman that stands before you - WHY I am as powerful as I am; Why I am as bold as I am; Why I am as radicalized, brash, and extroverted that I am; AND as why I am "no fucks left to give" that I am.
I fight for myself and for others now instead of remaining hidden from myself.
I really loved your concept of creating a new "map" of the self - it will stay with me for a while!
Love and solidarity 💜✊🏽❤️
wow this was incredibly powerful, and really beautifully written. The vulnerability softens us all
"One’s personal lore, or mythology of the self, can be as stubborn as a scar."
Thank you so much!
Isn't aging grand? Isn't aging terrifying? Isn't gaining awareness both terrifying and grand?
As I age, the little things still bugged me but not nearly as much as the big things I was finally seeing around me (they and I had lain hidden for the entirety of my life, with only a quick glimpse lurking in the shadows).
I started Ketamine infusion therapy at 70. I am now going on 74 - SO much lighter but so much more aware of the things I hid for 70 years because to reveal them too soon to me would have destroyed me. My PTSD was well earned but is no longer a badge or a costume but a lesson and an inspiration for he woman that stands before you - WHY I am as powerful as I am; Why I am as bold as I am; Why I am as radicalized, brash, and extroverted that I am; AND as why I am "no fucks left to give" that I am.
I fight for myself and for others now instead of remaining hidden from myself.
I hear you and love you, Mona.
You are still becoming, as I am still becoming
Fuck yes, sister comrade! I love to hear it!